Why focusing a board feels so fucking great.

Sick for two days, tonnes of school work, waking up late because I cough until like 2 to 3 in the morning. I feel as if I’ve done 100 push ups a day when I wake up after a night of coughing fits. So I decided I would try and go skateboard, you know sweat some of that sickness out. No, I should have said no, you’re a cranky bitch who hasn’t smoked in two days this is fucking bad idea.

There it is though, in all its glory. I tried to kick flip, the most simple of objects, a drain lid. I tried about 4 times, then i fucking snapped. My muscle memory shot from two months no board time and my lungs gasping for air from the same time off the board. I snapped, my vision went white and in front of a few of my peers, People my age. I slammed my foot down on the middle of the board hearing a satisfying “CRACK” and then i proceeded to throw it around til it broke in half.

You know what this means. Time for a new beginning. I fucking put all my laziness and lethargy in that board and fucking snapped it in half. Put all those dopey smiling feel good worthless ass emotions that smile and say hi but smear your fucking kitchen full of mustard and cheese but never clean it up, so you smell like mustard and cheese. On the inside, laziness, lethargy, entitlement. Put in a skateboard, snapped the fuck in half. Cold blooded emotional murder through a inanimate object. See what makes skateboarding beautiful is that the boards are made to be broken. To be “focused” where you focus all your fucking hatred on that piece of shit and destroy it. Then go buy a new one and just skate on, it is a socially acceptable way to throw something around and break it with no long term negative re-percussion’s (a broken board and no cash to buy a new one being an exception, but i wouldn’t break the board if you know that is going to happen).

Also now i have cool diy shelves and other things I can used my broken boards for. Art, whatever, broken boards serve many re-usable purposes. So many advantages to breaking a board. I could go on for hours.